She' s LEAVING .. for GooD

Guess this time around... there is no turning back. She has made up her mind... for real.

About a month ago when she broke the news, deep in my heart I wanted it to be mainly a form of dissatisfaction on some unresolved issues on some influential individuals...Well more than often it happened to me too. I bet if I were to be at her age now, I would be a quitter.. Like we Malays used to say and grumble... "Malas nak layan kerenah manusia yang tak berpijak di bumi nyata". But, the other side of me, I am saluting her for all the courage that she has inside in embracing all those kind of immature and illogical moments of some people around us. Have to admit, my patience runs low when it comes to dealing with this kinda situation.

Knowing her for more than 10 years, I am amazed with her cool attitude at times especially when it comes to "critical' moments. I would be the one wondering left and right and yup...she stays calm and cool. I know having her beside me in such situations is pure prudent blessings. Not really sure though what would happen to me without her presence! hahahahaha....whatever it is I have to survive on my own way and I know I will....


To certain extend, she is my companion. There were things that are too personal to be discussed openly with some friends and even to your siblings! Well I shared them with her... perhaps she is always there when I needed someone to confide with... Often she is the one to know first on  certain :sad" or "tragic" or even "stupid" moments happened or I myself created in my life.

I am not sure why it really touches my sensibility this time round...when she said that she's leaving...again...but this time for good and of coz for real! I keep on praying for miracles to happen as hindrance or the stumble block for her not to pursue her intention. But this time, the miracles are no where to be found and not even a single sign shown to indicate that she would stay.

So she is leaving... soon. I foresee I might be in some akward moments when she is no longer around. Well maybe I promise - takkan ada meja yang terbalik or kerusi yang dibaling!!!! if I were to be stuffed with some stupidity.... hahahhha.... But people say as you grow older, you are wiser in your decisions... and I hope it does apply to me.

And to you my friend.. Jiji aka Carmen aka Babuji ; You'll be missed and remembered for all the things that you have done... be it good or even 'bad' hahahaha... I wish you all the best in your future endeavours and may HIS blessings be with you always.

So long my friend! :)
And something tells me we wont be under a same roof again....