Self RefLecTioN

 
This is something easy and difficult to do simultaneously!
Something that I chose to write during CNY holidays...   

My 'model' of self reflection ....

But do we do self reflection on ourselves? Yeah perhaps some of us do and finally identified what needs to be corrected and what needs to be improved. Some learned from their on personal mistakes. Alhamdulillah. And some learned from other people's experience. Be it from your own experience and from others', most important is you 'scan' yourselves, 'fixed' the problems and be a better person.

This is somehow easier said than done. Sometimes, its difficult for us to acknowledge/admit our own mistakes. Perhaps its merely hard habit to break. But being human and in search of our own true self, we ought to change for good.

Lately I have been encountering so may issues and problems; both my own and other peoples'. Have been trying to be rationale even though sometimes its painstakingly hurting inside out. Guess its for my own betterment as a grown up person (how do you refer a person who is almost 46 years of age - a grown up? or perhaps an elderly ? .. hahahha!).

10 or 15 years back, I would react differently. The young blood inside you would be the agent for you to act unconsciously. ... criticizing, scrutinizing, condemning, blaming.. so as to speak out your mind... wildly and bluntly!   But as you grow older and wiser, you changed. All those inferences like  'I am better than you...'  no longer prevail. Perhaps after all those years, we are more shrewd in our thinking and actions as these two would act in one direction towards self reflection. We will not be easily snapped and speak our mind differently and of coz professionally.

Now, what ever happened to others, I would observe, learn and not trying to do the same mistakes. Trying my best not to use criticism as the only medium to speak but on the other hand embarking on the concept of cause and effect as part of learning process. That would Insyallah, hinder myself from repeating the same problem and experience the same after effects or aftermath of a problem or  a situation of the same manner.

Unlikely, if you dwell in the same issues and matters which you obviously kinda expect the result, - negative- you would definitely drain your energy, loosen your hope and beaten your inner strength! However, like people use to say... there is always blessing in disguise - you might learn something new along the way as you experience it yourself. But why must you waste your time when you know the truth? God knows! I don't have the answer for that. Maybe you are the chosen one. When you are the chosen one, I believe you are the most loved and tested differently.

But whatever the situation is, the most important thing is for me to continuously observing ,,, and learning... through what ever happened near my surroundings. Life is a never ending learning process. It depends on how we see things and accept whatever happened to us with an open mind and open heart. And its not easy. True, its from Allah. HE rules.... and I am a tiny person in HIS whole Universe.... and at this moment of time, all I ever need is HIS Blessings.  WallahuA'lam.