MAKING it WORKS - Coping & Adjusting..

It was a full day of stress! But glad everything was finally manageable. I guess it took a hell lot of patience. Gotta be strong .... mentally and emotionally.... and not EASY!

He was supposed to undergo his surgery tomorrow. Unfortunately, his current condition has been described as 'unfit'. Restless, tired and deprived of sound plus quality sleep resulted in 'under controlled tantrum' of him. He demanded a 2 day home leave... reason being the surrounding environment put more pressure and worsen his condition

I guess I had to be smart enough to play my role.... agreeing to his plead would cause more risks to him .... I have to think of others - the family as a whole.When the specialists did their rounds, I had to speak in contradiction. I have to speak on his behalf and at the same time what I thought the best for him. Some of the docs were puzzled at first but understood later.

Not blaming him entirely, I might do the same ... It has been a week and to him the docs are not doing good enough. Frankly, he has been improving a lot. And when the ops was called off, the doc was doing the right thing under his/her professional ethics. The calculated risks are greater and it was for the benefit of the patient. And being the patient in concerned, he refused to accept that as a fiduciary duty/responsibility of a medical practitioner.

His stress increased! My level of tense doubled! But I have to always remind myself that this is part and parcel of life. Some people went through worst. Some people went thru nothing. This is actually my duty ... to ensure that his well being is taken care of.  Not an easy task though. I have to admit that I restrained myself to engage in communication when he translated his dissatisfaction into words and action.... merely to avoid difference of opinions.. silent was golden.. 

Later in the evening, another doc came and did some thorough check up on him. Did some breathing exercise, lungs physio and detailed conversation... Infection was clear. No longer on oxygen mask and changed to merely oxygen tube meaning less supply of oxygen so that he could breathe comfortably. Yup... he was a bit relax now. Better than before.Next ops date is on Friday. I am praying hard that he is fit to undergo the ops which will take at least 2 hours.

I know how he feels right now...stress, tired, worried and many more. All jumbled up! And I know at his age now he wants to be restless free..

I learned my lesson well...
Its not easy to handle an unwell person
The best you can do is to manage yourself right, think deep and play your role efficiently..
Its a challenge to satisfy everyone...
Its even a greater challenge to manage yourself right and rationale your decision at the same time..
.... most of the time your feelings are secondary and are not worth defending .....
.... as what matter most is the one you love!