And It CoNtINuES !

Life has been so hectic nowadays... till at times i didnt notice that i didnt miss him a lot! Is that a sin or what?

But when it hits me... it can hit me anytime. I can just cry and the tears will continue dropping ... and it can be anytime... while watching tv, while in the midst of meeting... the fact is i miss him like more than crazy can describe..

Went to visit mum yesterday. She is looking good n great. I hope its not a false misrepresentation of hers. Talked to her... kissed her...gave her hugs that i seldom did before.... yup i guess she is a woman of steel heart. Ed my brother has moved in to stay together with mum. No words can describe how i feel towards Ed' s sacrifice.

I miss u ... i went to your room again yesterday. Open your closet and breathed... u r there... your smell ...i touched your shirts.. your robes especially... the your smell is still freshhhh.

Mum gave me your sarong and robe yesterday. I hug that sarong last nite as if praying that God will permit me dreaming of u. But it didnt come true...i wonder why... i wonder when....

And that missing u continues to be part of my daily routine.. as long as i live...