Still Counting - Week 4

Its been nearly a month since she was diagnosed with the Big C. That excludes the challenging days when she was first admitted, thoroughly examined by the specialists and docs to be,  answering similar questions from the docs (e.g do u smoke, what was your job before . bla bla bla)... and the worst part when she was told buntly that her tumor has invaded her lungs... which actually equals to stage 4!  Upon CT scan, hers was then diagnosed as stage 2B with 2 tumors!  How time flies...It was not only the pain that she went through but I guess almost everything....

Our lives changed since that moment. Adjustments were made..and still being made every now and then. There were even trial and error among us, .. just to ensure that we found the right formula to overcome the predicament. It affects everyone in the family from the youngest to the eldest. 

Making adjustments has caused some sacrifices ... be it time, money or anything for that matters. There were/are moments of tense, sorrow and dissatisfaction... But one thing for sure it makes us stronger.
She was strong, focus and positive upon the diagnose... not that she isn't at the moment, but all those like been drifting away... a bit...

Week 4 - She has completed 18 RTs and 3 Chemos. Missed 1 RT - due to a public holiday and 1 Chemo due to high fever. Was supposed to go thru brachy session but was cancelled twice. Again due to high fever.

Her current condition - the side effects are now very revealing. Last 2 days was the worst so far. She is now experiencing the complete package of the side effects... and she is really trying very hard to win the battle.. even though she's merely armed with her inner strength. That justifies why I have to be with her almost every day. My instinct tells that she needs people close to her to elevate her strength which is at current, slowly defeating.

This week - no home leave for her. She is too weak ... She needs what she deserves more - a peace of mind.

She is tired, mind, body and soul..
She is fighting ...

We are continuously praying
and hoping ...
... for a good ending. 

 Get Well soon Mak ...
We miss the old you...