What to expect?

I am not sure as to whether she knows her condition well. Frankly i am scared

I am hopeless... I dont know what to feel. What to expect.

Every now and then i broke down while driving alone to the office...fr office back home.

Her unstable condition is an emotional roller coster to me. 

I know each day its not getting better. In fact she is getting weaker, less talk, emotionless ... Or perhaps she is counting days herself. 

I missed that smile..that shiny eyes..that unexpected jokes cracking from her..

How could i live without u?