Life is a complete CHALLENGE

As I grow older and 'wiser' I learn to accept things as they are. One part of me I try my best to be a better person everyday and another part of me pushing myself to overcome the challenges hurdling me.
Took a break for 2 days from the office works. Well, even though it was officially called a 'Break' but the 'chain' is always a dotted line. I am still working virtually.

Lately many challenges that I discovered will remain as it is ..... Its either you learn to accept and move forward or leave! That challenges are of coz consists of people around you - might be your Boss, colleagues, siblings, in-laws ...the list goes on and to list your other half is not an exception sometimes!

During my green days at work, I found that some Bosses were extremely difficult in so may ways.  But I survived because what matter was my drive to put this 'issue' aside and move  forward even though I was burning inside. Being young, vibrant and energetic I never pronounced this as one of my greatest challenges.

But as time flies, I am beginning to consider this issue and correlate it with poor leadership qualities. I am no leader as well but I think I learned a lot through hard ways. Where I am now equals to hardworking and an endless commitment. Fullstop! I earned through my own sweat and blood. Well sometimes its quite disheartening to see with your own naked eyes that some people are using whatever they have be it status, money, look and whatever that matters to be at the top! And in the end when this kind of people are at the top, they failed to look down! There goes the top leaders with no passion, limited creativity, pronouncing their powers at their own whim and fancy and etc, etc.

I am no longer as young as before but still I believe I am vibrant enough to move forward leaving this issue as another learning stage in my daily life. Meddling with it and hampering yourself to do forward thinking is a complete waste. Well... its a complete 'easier said than done' thingy actually. It demands sacrifices, patience and time consuming. Its a complete challenge.

I must be lying if I were to say that in some situations I don't feel like 'breaking the rules' and 'just do it'. I have never tried to respond and attack with the same strategy or fight fire with fire..perhaps this is a strategy that I might think of doing one fine day.

I hope i will remain positive in life. With all the happenings and news around you be it good or bad, it always has something to remind you. Its how you take it, process and implement. What matter most  - you love yourself, your family and most important is you love your life even though it's a complete challenge.

How's your SUNDAY?

It's SUNDAY!!
Was deprived of enjoying my Sundays for couple of weeks...

At home today.. even though it's Sunday.. need to settle few outstanding matters (job related ...again..)
Am working on this project with UNI students. The submissions have yet to be reviewed. But the participation looks very very encouraging this year. Surprisingly the no of submissions are the same with last year's. Trust that the quality is better as some of them have already make themselves familiar with the process and the requirements of the submissions. Hmmhhh... need to review soonest possible.


I think if this kinda project or challenge were to be introduced during my UNi days, I would be one of the regular participants. Frankly this project is very 'noble' - it helps the society or community to continuously sustain. Also, an avenue for the students to 'instil', 'unleash' and 'polish' their creativity skills, entrepreneurship skills and most important giving back to the community. (this sounds almost like a write up in the press release hahaha).

Oh! by the way one of the students (from the winning group last year) has just reported duty last week. She's been assisting me on this proposals listing. Young and vibrant, I hope she will survive and gain as many experience and knowledge as she can.

Hubby, as always is busy with the cars - washing, polishing and do his regular checks around the body of the cars whether there's any scratch or dent.. unintentionally done by his wife ..:) and if he found any, i have to listen to his nags almost a day!! Normally, I will just keep myself quiet or the most blame other drivers on the road!!

Amir, as usual will always with his Maths exercise books, puzzles, drawings and cartoons. He is very good in numbers. I always compare him with myself. I don't remember at all, myself at his age (5) diligently doing Maths exercises.. To watch him grows in front of my naked eyes is something valuable, sentimental and satisfying. Sending him to schools at 5 is really a good move! I should have sent him earlier, maybe at 4 but I have this kinda feeling that he might get bored. Amir is given 2 tasks i.e dancing and acting. Dancing - that Madagascar Song (Move It .. (I think!) and Acting as Baginda Masai - a scene in the film Nujum Pak Belalang - this is in line with the school concert with a theme ' The Memoirs of P. Ramlee'. So every now and then he will sometimes dance in front of the TV or act in front of the PC! I peeped from far just not to let him feels shy...


Later need to do some ironing. Lunch? Cook? No... not today..
We are going for a movie later today..
I leave it to hubby to pick which movie..
I think its not the movie that really matter to me ... its the quality time that we spend together
And for Amir, its not really on the movie as well (depending on what kinda movie actually)... he enjoys the popcorn more I guess... hahahhaa!

 Have an enjoyable and a restful weekend peeps!

I Love U just the way U are.

For 2 days I (and few other) was 'educated' at our training centre in Bangi - for the Potential Leadership Program. This is just the beginning... Why I said 'educated' - all this while my mind was focusing on delivering tasks given. Like it or not the objective is to get things done..of coz within the specific period of time.
But this time round, i focused more on how to accept ppl just the way they are.

It was interesting to learn about ppl and of coz yourself. All this while perhaps or maybe almost all the time, I questioned some ppl's action without taking into consideration their personalities.

Now I know why my dad was once a pure choleric can be phlegmatic too....
and why my other half was once sanguine can change to melancholic...
Life is so beautiful..

Learning how to understand people is at times 'tiring'. But when we know their strength, we are able to effectively communicate with them....(with similar hope that other ppl will try to understand me too ... wink...wink...hehheeh)

I think i absorbed a lot during the program. Even though a bit tired and most of the times worried on the tasks left unattended at the office, still it was a fruitful and meaningful way of education.

Upon arriving home, I was greeted by  my lil' Amir. He took my stuff and 'forced' me to sit on the sofa. Within seconds he came back to me and handed over a glass of water. "Mak minum dulu ye"... he said with a smile..

I was touched.. (even when I was at his age (5 yrs) , I've never thought of doing the same thing to my parents!!).
Son, whether you are a sanguine, choleric, melancholic or phlegmatic, I LOVE U JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!  You Made My Day!!

Defining my INNER Strength

This is actually a tagline for Putrajaya Night Marathon which was successfully handled on 15 Oct 2011. Well we were not the race organizer neither the event organizer... but being a title sponsor for the first time for such a big event was a 'nightmare'. With the big sponsored amount, we prayed hard (very) for the event to run smooth.

Launching another product on the same night simultaneously was at first frightened me. But alhamdulillah, everything went well as planned. Though we finished late almost 2.00 am (16 Oct 2011) but it was very satisfying.


Today, I attended the first briefing on a program - Potential Leaders Development Program. It takes 2 years to complete and I am not sure as to whether I should be proud of myself - as I was chosen along with other 41 candidates in the Bank.

"Its an avenue for me to define my inner strength' that was some bits of my points which was video taped last week. I said to myself this must be one of my 'poyoness' moments...

I hope I sailed thru this program.... deep in my heart, i should have attended such a program during my 'green' days... yup its an opportunity not to be missed...

I am excited to go thru this program but at the same time there are butterflies in my stomach.
The organizer gave each of us the book the longed to read ' A Doctor in the House' ..
I cracked a joke... i wanted to have that kinda book that speaks (highly - I must be kidding!!) on me ...maybe 'A comedian in the house' - and the contents are pictures of myself taken by others ... me with my bloopers - bloopers via emails, pictures of myself tergolek ... and perhaps pictures of my blause with sambal nasi lemak!!!

Need positive MANTRA

It has been months...
Workload is not an excuse but it is sometimes...

Have been keeping all the frustrations and anger inside.. trying so hard to keep it well inside.
Frustrations ... that sometimes makes you wanna yell out loud... but in the end you cool down..
Anger .... makes you wanna have confrontation ...but in the end you wiped out your tears...

Is that the strength that I cultivated thru all the hardships... or plainly blessing in disguise...
Think I should thank Allah for still giving me the strength...even though at times feel like quitting.
Quitting responsibilities? Exploring other opportunities?

I think I need positive mantra...