Must it ends this way?

I always look forward for Sundays when it comes to reading news ... in all papers...
Just read HM and UM...

Looks like the news were more focusing on relationships -marriage. Some covered on divorce, some on marrital problems that would lead to divorce... Must it ends this way?

During my younger days or the early day of my marriage, I don't see this as an issue but nowadays problems in marriage are freely and openly dicsussed in media especially those of the celebrities... Is it a trend? or no longer a taboo? Only God knows why?

But I still believe marriage is something sacred ... two souls travelling the pathway of life as one...that should not be broken ..But today marriage is viewed differently. Some of us sailed thru for merely couple of years..even though the years of courting were declared to be perfect. Some struggle to ensure the institution remains solid and strong. Some lose the battles.... with/without fighthing.... Must it ends this way?

Well maybe the magic word here is LOVE. To me no matter how bad is the situation, if LOVE is still in command, any marriage can survive. It takes two to tango... So its a duty of both husband and wife.

As we grow older and wiser, when we found that our other half are not the person that we've known before and when we`are just like desperate souls .... we should be looking for a tune-up or a major revamp and ... we should search for one miracle tip that will whip our marriage back into shape... Its the beginning to rekindle the romance and keeps the fire burning...

To my beloved Hubby ... we've gone thru a lot...happiness, sadness and even madness through all these years... and alhamduliilah no matter what it takes and come what may... our LOVE still survives... I hope and pray hard that this LOVE will never end.

Dear hubby, thank you for all the love, patience and understanding ...
May our LOVE remains strong and valid till death do us apart..

To the love birds - Kama & Suzie who are tying the scared knot today..May both of you sail through the unpredictable waves and strong winds of the ocean... :)

Life begins at 40?

This entry is specially dedicated to someone whom I have known for more than 40 years..
Who else ? my own brother ......
I guess finally, you've made it? Congratulations! After all the hardships, difficulties, etc, etc, ...
Its true eh...life begins at 40.?

Personally, I think you deserve it. Well its true, there were many ups and downs... even I myself exeperienced and still experiencing ... but al those searchings before be it high or low, is compensated now.
But bear in mind, the hardships will never end... its just the beginning...

But when you are at the top, dont forget the ppl around you...ppl who have been praying for your victory, ppl who have been sacrificing their time, love and happiness for your sake...

I pray and wish that happiness is always with you, Rosie and the kids.


So when is the 'feast'?

The verdict is on the way!

Not really sure as to whether the verdict is for / against me?
I am dying for the answer ...
As it is now, the situation s very very unpredictable..
God, please give me the strength to face all this ...
Please shower me with your blessings to overcome this..
Deep inside ... I don't want to lose this battle..

A worthwhile wait ka?

Good news for hubby...
After nearly 2 months, the insurance has just approved the claim to repair his Alza.
That would take another month maybe ...
Aiyo what a long wait...
But told him that its better not to rush the workshop.. or else the repair works will be improperly or unprofessionally done.
Pity him for not having any means of transportation for quite sometime..
Last few months my WMK ran amok.... and now its my time to pay back hubby's sacrifices...
Okay ... you may take WMK .. once a while... looks like i have to take a ride from WTE 3535 ka?
Serve him a lesson as well .. to be more careful, cautious in future..
So only God knows if the long wait is worthwhile... :)

Confuse

I am in the state of confusion.
Why must this happened?
What have I done? or haven't I done enuf?
Or perhaps this is one of the tests by HIM...
People got tested in a very different manner..

I know I have to be positive
I've gotta have all the strength
I have to stand tall
I have to speak for my rights

And yet I am alone...

Can I afford to stand on my own?
Or fall without fighting?

If only I could turn back the clock..

I have so many reasons to do so...
Missing my childhood days... if only at that point of time we have the Internet, computer games bla bla bla... I must be the one among my siblings to rush for them...

Missing my school days... how I wish I could get the green light from my fairy god mother a.k.a Pn Hamidah to be one of the school sprinters...

Missing my Uni day, how I wish I could erase the tragic moments of my first 'cinta monyet'.... well flashing back I think I acted so stupid and childish... but perhaps one of the learing processes in life..

.... and now, how I wish I could stay at 25 throughout my life... Why? Because at 25, I was at the peak ...
A practising lawyer with own legal firm....
Not married, voiced out my intention to immigrate to Brunei... but was totally refused and 'positively denied' by parents... Yeah... I know they meant good!

Soon, I am celebrating my 14th anniversary. To all maybe this number equals to 'long, boring and routine' relationship. I agree... but I would add 'experience (be it good or bad), forgive (even though sometimes its damn hard to forget!), respect, trust and love. I think we all experience the same thing. Its just that in order to make it worthwhile, one of us should be strong than the other half. That would probably keeps the fire burning...Insyallah...

why am i writing all this.....

Raya is/was here...

Too late to wish huh? Anyways happy holidays to everyone and I bet you have been enjoying the days...
Well frankly after the 6th Raya now, I'm counting my days to start work again... sounds boring right?

So raya is always as usual... nothing unusual this year. But I guess everyone was shocked with the murder of the millionaire lady and her 3 friends. What a gruesome act of killing... Al Fatihah to all of them. At this point of time, the victims' family members have to be strong... well its easier said than done. Hopefully the media is also playing their role not to report exaggerately ...for the sake of humanity.. All lawyers out there, looks like the profession is badly tarnished. Not being racist here, but I hope this will not lead to any similar incident of May 13... 


Believe it or not... I am still on leave... Something that I have never done since I started earning. Well, maybe this is the unusual thing about this year's raya! Obviously I am not all into Raya mood but most likely enjoying my days with hubby and son.

Lepas ni jangan harap la nak dapat cuti panjang... That is the reason why hubby and I thought it would be good to bring Amir to Genting Highland. Finally, after planning for couple of times before, this time we made it. Since he is only 4, we only managed the indoor games. But it was an experience for him to enjoy the rides.
Nak masuk outdoor theme park, it was a bit late... so maybe next time...which I think will be in couple of years lagi... :).

And I bet after this, hubby will start busy again. I pray hard that whatever he does for the family will be granted and fulfilled. Insyallah.

I am caughing quiete badly now... camner nak buat surprise performance masa Puspanita dinner ni? Lagu dah ada... evergreen lagi! khas untuk kakak-kakak puspanita... semuga anda terhibur...

To Amir, I know that you are happy and enjoy every minute spent with us, abah and mak...We are happy for you...even though sometimes I do 'use' my veto to educate you..

To hubby , have I told you lately that I love you? :)

Nak main outdoor games ... indoor games pun tak cukup tinggi!

First ride ... merry go round

Dgn abah kat dalam 'ikan paus' ......

Why did I look so ;takut;.... nice shot from Amir....

We hope for good news

I did make a call to that goverment's office.
The result will be out soon.. perhaps in October.
Couldn't really wait fot that moment.
Hubby and I are hoping that good news will be announced soon and hoping that ours is one of them...
I even have some plans already..to celebrate that moment!

I still need you..

I thought I saw him opened the door and walked into the room. I woke up and looked after him in his 'cave' - his favourite room where he spent most of his time reading, calculating and writing... But he wasn't there. I opened the window, there was no sig of his car... It was 2.30 am...

I was waken up by a phone call from him. It was 3.25am.. "Yang .... I accident ... kat Jln Tun Razak"...
Speechless.. the only thing that I asked "Are u okay?".

I couldn't sleep .. my heart was pumping and wanted to fetch him but luckily a cousin was around and setteld everything... Went and fetched him at Pusrawi 2 hours after that... I saw wounds and lacerations on some parts of his body. Few stitches on his forehead. He looked so blur and confused...

The car was totally a wreck! He was given another 'life' ...
To my bloved husband... I'm glad ... and I really mean it... that you are okay...
I dont think I can afford to lose someone like you now...and forever ...as long as I live ...

WTY 1873 ...after the accident...

Baru sebulan monthly instalment ... whoaaaaaa.....

Both airbags were functioning...due the impact. The interior ....after the accident

Blood stains...

The driver.... perhaps thinking how did it happen...

God knows what was he thinking ..... hahaha...

T R U S T

Do you still remember, when you were at your younger age perhaps in your primary school, you used to share little secrets only with your closest friends (maybe one or two of them) and mentioned this to them "you promise me, do not tell anyone ha...This is between you and me only"... and for all you know next 2 days the little secrets were no longer secrets...

And do you still  remember when you were in your good old days ... I mean during your college or Uni... you shared secrets on the boys / seniors whom you had crush on / attracted to... and of coz still reminding your best friend to keep them dear to their hearts... Unfortunately it didn't last long... The following week the whole faculty of your class would have known who you admired most ...

When you were at your early stage working in a big company.. and it happened that you were one of the emergency rescue team.. The commitee will share on the fire drill exercise... and ... on the day itself you and few of your close friends were already at the ground flr...


But what is the real value of a trust ... it's a wide definition and depends on a situation/subject matter..
Will someone consider me I have betrayed his/her trust if I shared his/her problems with other friends?

Will someone consider me a bad person if I have betrayed his/her trust just for the sake of having fun...

Only God Knows...

I once read "without trust no relationship can thrive"...

Tht's how importance trust is...

Have we progressed?

I was 'called' to write this after what happened last week.
To me progress is not merely limited to technology economy and development...
But counts in the progress of our mind and attitude...
I just couldnt believe why some ppl (well educated) will some how or rather fail to note the importance of progress in mind and attitude..
Perhaps some people are still ruled by their own emotions...
Perhap some people still hold fast to selfishness...
and some couldn't borther as long as they got what they aim for and fulfilled their needs...
Deep in my heart, I am expecting some positive changes among the team, friends and relatives...

and often asked myself as well... have I progressed?
The truth is I am still progressing .... and will always be...
Its a learning process in life...

Working my brain cells

I have been busy, tired and excited lately.
SVC? Uni road shows? Program Prihatin (with Dato Sohaimi Shaidan), Futsal? PC in Perak? India trip? Walkathon? BSN Rangers?
Social Venture Challenge - has started.. and the road shows to all Unis have also started...
So far, went to UKM, UPM, KLMU, USIM, UITM, UIA, UNITEN, Lim Kok Wing... and yesterday UUM, Sintok.
It was a tiring journey - presented to almost 70 students on the SVC in the morning. Driven to Penang by 2 officers from cawangan (Farhanah and En Aziz). Nasib baik dapat tukar flight petang... kalau tak pukul 12 malam un belum sampai umah.

Tomorrow - walkathon  7km..Frankly the first walkathon that I've ever participated. Then next week, we have to plan how to get the rest of Unis visited. Perhaps to divide into 2 groups.

Well... its really tiring, take up a lot of my time... but it makes my brain cells working...
At 43 now... I am proud... am still going strong, young (even though at heart) and some ppl though that I am not even 40... (puji diri sendiri....).
Guess... I have to get myself involved in so many things and stuff (be it responsibilty or voluntarily) in order to be fast and efficient...

Malang tak berbau?

Betul kata orang... malang tak berbau... Kalau kita boleh bau/hidu, of coz dapat dielakkan.
This is not about me ... but apparently about my dad.
Last Sunday, genap sebulan he got his right eye cataract removed. The doc, even mum and all of us advised him not to be as 'active' as before. Well... being an ex army and who can't really sit the whole day, he often broke the rules... by doing all sort of things ...
He fractured his right hand wrist...

Mak : apa dah jadi ni?
Abah : Ntah... tak nampak ada satu lagi step... ingatkan pijak tanah... rupanya pijak angin
Mak : Apa buat kat bawah tu?
Abah : Tebang pokok pisang tu... abis pisang kat bawah tu camner? saya dah tertingga kat bawah...
Mak : Dah jatuh camni pun ingat pokok pisang la... buah pisang la... dah dah dah... biar budak-budak tu kang ambik..

Kebetulan, the next day, it was my turn to send him to do his follow up check up with Dr Saras on his eyes at TONEH. Mesti orang ingat dia salah hospital... Tangan bersimen...tapi ada kat hospital mata!!!

Apa- apa pun, Amir paling kecoh..

Amir : Abah... abah... atok jatuh tadi. Tapi atuk tak nangis
Abah : Ye ke? Camner atuk jatuh?
Amir : Dia main kat bawah tadi lepas tu dia jatuh...
Amir : Abah.. atuk ada tangan baru..
Abah : Tangan baru macamana?
Amir : TAngan atuk keras... warna putih ...

I have the feeling that mesti abah ni tak senang duduk. 2 Aug pergi check up balik. Hopefuly he will recover soon. Pity him....
And now, I have to drive Oya every morning to school. Mum has to drive the car. Sib baik boleh bawak kete... manual plak tu...

But mum told me when she went to the market with dad (dgn tangan bersimen)... dad is just like a celebrity...
Everyone kat pasar tu tak kira Melayu ke, Cina ke, India ke, Indon ke ... toke ikan, toke daging, toke ayam, orang mesin kelapa semua tanya dia ..... hahahaa.... Hope that will cheer him up...!

psttt... tak sabar rasanya nak tulis kat tangan simen abah " You jump, I jump"... Get well soon Dad, We love you!!

I am still searching

Do you ever have the kinda feeling that you are 'too lazy' to work even though your works are piling up...
That is what I feel now.... well the mood is just not there...
I know this is procrastination... but I just couldn't help it... I am a dead body if any of the CEs ever have the opportunity to read this...

But I am still sober.... I still have not missed my deadline... yet... :)

I think this kinda feeling is quite normal. There are times and moments in our life that we need to be alone..
that moments when you feel that you just need  a break from all the routines! That's what I am feeling right now. But of coz being a person who feels that tasks given must be deliberately delivered and fulfilled, I always ensure that this feeling will come to its station when I've had enuf. Well, am proud to say that all this while I manage my time and procrastination well. A pat to my shoulder hahaha...

Sometimes it makes me guilty at times and frankly  i do hate myself for having such a feeling ..even though I reasoned myself this is normal and it happens to everyone.

Maybe too much routines or its about time to peep into other challenges? Something to ponder upon. No... I'm not leaving the current place..as yet. I think I have learnt quite a lot in order to understand the organization better, how it works, how it is managed and the most important thing how to suit myself in its 'culture'. Though it was difficult for me to adapt during my early days but I am used to it now...The beauty of it, you've gotta the opportunity to meet all kinds of ppl here. Its a challenge by itself.  And I think I've made it!!

But I'm only human and of coz I tend to make mistakes, blunders and bloopers... But come to think of it, its the best part of all. I believe there are a lot more to learn. And in the process of learning, we will encounter problems, feelings of discomfort, dissatisfaction and even hatred. I hope that these will make me a better person. There is no coincidence in life. I am fated to be here and for a reason that I am still searching...

Thank you God for everything!

Ops Talk of the town vs Sotong Bakar

Went off to Penang last Friday. Suddenly we thought that we should go for a vacation. A 'simple' vacation .. tak la sampai obersi (oversea). Cant afford that at the moment ... time as well as $$$!! Yeah just got the bonus after a long painstaking waiting.. :) .. Alhamdulillah .... but lots of things to settle with that $$$.

Amir was excited as usual. I think the last vacation the three of us had together was last year..also Penang but I had to attend for an event at that time.

Thought this vaction could take away if not all but perhaps some of the mess in my head.. especially the social challenge (Operasi Talk of the town!).. Looks like the management is really on to it now.. hmmhhh why ? all of a sudden. Have laid some plans with the team and to kick off next week.  Hope everything is manageable...This operasi talk of the town has been declared as my KPI... My KPI??? whatever!!


Had fun with hubby and Amir.. walaupun penat and at times Amir had his own tantrum... kadang kadang pening nak layan... but layan ajer la... just follow the flow... Amir has been requesting us to take him for a train ride. Went to Bukit Bendera... still renovation in progress after more than one year... To pay back, we went to the Toy Museum.  I thought the toys showcased are huge ones but it was not... Quite a dissappointment..but not to little kid like Amir la...

Whatever it is, I like Penang for its food... the signature is of coz its nasi kandar. I saw people queuing for nasi kandar at its famaous Line Clear irrespective of gender and race... We did not have nasi kandar at all... but we had mee udang, sotong bakar, kue teow kerang and its pasembur. Amir boleh mengadap sotong bakar sorang..... Before we went back to KL ... sempat repeat sotong bakar....

On our way back to KL, rasa macam malas dan bercinta nak pergi kerja... Feel like continue resting..
But when suddenly the work KPI crossed my mind, feel like I have to gear myself and fuel my team for the same objective...

But I really miss the sotong bakar... must repeat... must repeat...hahahah....

A Mess!

The office is a complete mess!!
Renovation works - I got myself a place at a corner..
Looks good.. as its quite difficult for ppl to see as to whether I'm in or Out..

The staff are still aranging their stuffs. Cables and wires are everywhere.. OSHA where are youuu?
Hmmhh, the contractor has not fixed th wiring at my place. So the computer is OFF.. but that doesn't mean that I can escaped works.. Works are as usual. Luckily I brought my BB. Still can send emails and blog!

Tried to settle the SVC stuff. Spoke to the Minister's special officer. Looks great! Went out with Jiji to scout for Challenge trophy.. I think we  might settle for the Royal Selangor.

Rasa macam nak demam.. the sore throat made me uneasy and weak.. Guess whatever it is, things that should be cleared this week must settle within this week... if not I will be a complete mess then!

God, I need your protection...

I was a bit disturbed yesterday night....

Yesterday morning  I've attended a talk on how to avoid yourself from being sexually and emotionally hurt by man. Well I admit that not all man are those I have mentioned. But when the opportunity is there, coupled with evil whispers, you will never know.

It was an interesting talk. Very interesting and informative I could say..

Some tips, advices and self defence acts were shown and given to the audience. Some pics and stories narrated during the talk were very touching. Through out the talk I had so many feelings ... angry with what happened to some women, the abducted girls, sexually and mentally tortured school girls, sad as I could feel the grievances faced by the victims and their close families... and to some extend I must be frank that I don't even know whether I could trust other people ...

But frankly, I was disturbed thinking of parents and Oya at home. How fast could I run and  come with a rescue if anything happen to them..What if the parts and pieces of the slides shown to me yesterday happened to my own blood... I could hardly sleep...

It can happen to anyone ...
So we have to be prepared.
God, please protect my whole family from any kind of evil of mankind ....
We need your blessings!

Looks like we made it ...

Yeah! looks like we made it!
After all hardships and difficulties as well as all the 'tak tidor malam' sometimes...
We went for the brief discussion...
Hubby and myself were very very happy indeed.
Cant wait for Dec to come or the earliest next 3 months!
Thank you God for all the blessings!

Its been a while...

Hmmh.. I've had mixed feelings on things happened.... disappointed, content, happy, bewildered, angry....
Well that's life. Things happened were actually colours of our life ..sometimes its hurt, sometimes its put smile of our face..

Work is as usual.. Datelines almost everyday. Have to be alert.. everything has to be on your finger tips. Its tiring sometimes but I have to say I enjoy each and every moment of the days I went thru. With good colleagues around ; sometimes they would make you laugh all the way and sometimes they would put you in deep shit...I treasure them all ..

At home, Amir is getting 'wiser' and 'smarter'. Its normal of him to make my 'blood run upstairs' and its also sweet of him to make me laugh and smile back. He has changed our lives (both hubby and myself) a lot....
Suddenly I feel how could I live without him....

Hubby is busy through out the year. Good for him and ours too... Business looks good. He's getting a new ride. Well not a luxurious CRV anyway... but a cute and cool Alza... Am happy for him...

Dad is scheduled for his operation on 17 June. Though he was reluctant at first - putting financial reason as the main excuse... he then agreed. We siblings believe his health is  our utmost concern. I am praying hard for him...

Mum is always a mum... Her concern on dad, sons, daughter, son in law, daughters in law and grandsons/grand daughters was always the on top of her priority list. Frankly I salute her courage to go thru her life...especially after losing her son, my brother. I am praying for her good health today, tomorrow and each day she lives...

I think I'm carried away...
Hope to have all the combined strength of dad and mum to explore my days ahead...

A complete Challenge

Raising a child nowadays is a complete challenge.
Mine, a boy aged 4 sometimes drives me crazy but at the end of the day puts a smile on my face... :)
This is not my personal experience but rather an experience of someone close.
Yesterday, after what happened, I had a serious thinking. What if the same thing were to happen to me ?
How do I handle the situation? How do I handle my frustration? How do I overcome my stress?

Nowadays as I observe, being parents is not an easy task. Compared to my younger days, 'canning' was always the solution. All sorts of punishments done before are prohibited to be implemented today. Looks like schools nowadays are no more than a place for knowledge acquisition. Moral, attitude and behaviour  of the students perhaps are no longer the prime focus of the teachers..
And perhaps there goes ... gifted knowledgable sudents perform better and better while the non gifted ones and unfortunately mischievous are left unattended ...
Whose fault is it? The parents? The teachers? or is it a revolution?

Couple of months ago, I persuaded my son to pre school. I know its a bit ridiculous but I am becoming a mum who wants her son to be perfect! Of coz the 4 year old kiddie showed a complete sign of refuse.
Frankly I did my own deep self reflection and finally realized that it was a selfish move.

But it was a surprise when my son mentioned that he is ready to meet new friends and learn new things in life when he finally agreed to my request. I suddenly believe that when the time is right he will be there.
To my bro...hang in there ... this is a challenge. Its a test from God. I know both of you will sail thru...
Continue the efforts and Don't Give Up!

Always there for you..

My dad is 72 years old this coming October. Still healthy ... and happy. I could still remember when he was at my current age (or perhaps older) he did all the gardening alone... (sometimes he got tired of 'enjoying' that alone too and 'forcely invited' us to join, normally on Sundays). That was maybe 15 - 20 years back when his energy was at the top and one of his routines was making sure the compound of the house was upkept.

He still does that gardening as usual but not as frequent as before. With all the cucu(s) around and the only son in law (of coz my hubby!), occasionally we will have family gathering - time for makan, chit chat and sharing ideas and opinions on politics as well as family's gossips hahaha...

But lately dad looks so 'tired' and perhaps not as energetic as before. Mum raised her concern on dad's driving - not like before, nowadays dad gets easily confused on the normal route.... Worst thing, when he does the marketing alone, he tends to forget what to buy and sometimes left things that he has bought .... But still he has the 'drive' to drive to places like Melaka, Muar .... (when he drives with mum and oya to these places, I make sure that I call every 2 hours). Selagi tak sampai rumah, I will be restless.

Last month dad complained of his blurry vision. We advised him to go and check his eyes. Joe sent him to the hospital and true enuf both of his eyes have cataract; the right one is in bad shape. Next month he will undergo a minor surgery to remove the one on the right. Before the surgery, he has to do 2 medical check ups. If both check ups okay, then only he qualifies the surgery.

Last Friday, he went to do his normal medical check up and the doc said he has gallstone. (I know that gallstone is in his family history). Perhaps after the cataract, the gallstone will be looked at ..

This is one of the aging symptoms... I hope dad will be okay. I know he will.
Even the doc said that looking at dad's condition and strength, he said dad is a strong-hearted man.
Yup we know that... I have been living with him for more than 40 years
The difficulties that he went thru all his life made him a tough and commanding person. I still remember when I was at my younger age... I believe that he has the power and strength to kill ghosts... :) (How time flies .... and I know all his cucu(s) have the same feeling and thoughts that I've had on him before).
I hope this old wise man, my dad will be okay..
And as for me and my brothers .. dad, we will be always there for you :)

Dia buat hal lagi...

For the past few days, memang tak senang duduk dibuatnya...
Masa tu la rasanya berangan jadi orang kaya, banyak duit terus tukar kereta!!
Yes the love of my life buat perangai lagi...
Lepas satu, satu... Rasa macam nak meletop, nak menjerit, hishhhhhhhhhhhh... geraammmmmmmmmmmm...
Hubby tak cakap apa all this while until finally he said "cuba bawak sabar sikit... be positive"... Calm but very commanding.

Yes I have forgotten the word patience actually. Even though its merely a car - yang tak semahal dan secanggih mana.. but it has been affecting and hitting me left and right.. Mana taknya itu la the only means for me, sending Amir, clocking in to the office and all other routines.
 

But the sweetest thing was that, hubby sent me to get a lift from gg every morning, fetching me from the same place that he drops me every morning... Something that I think have not been practised for quite some time...
Well.. now the love of my life is back to normal and even though I treasured that spin of moments shared with hubby every morning and evening, I prefer not to go thru this 'engaging and "adventurous" sitaution again....

Gals just wanna have fun?

Is that true? Nay!! But perhaps ... last nite we did!!
It was an enjoyable gathering. A dinner was held for the whole department at Renaissance just beside the pool area. As usual Sally really dressed up. I just changed to a more 'casual party' outfit... Just to get out of the 'office' ambiance.  It was a hectic day though... I had to attend 3 meetings - one after another... besides 'entertaining' some staffs' stuffs..

We arrived at the pool side a bit late... We (Nasha, Sally, Kogi and myself) decided to pool in one car... and it was Nasha's ... part of it bacause she drives Alphard... and the other part of the reason was malas nak jalan... even tho' Wisma BSN and Renaissance tu 'sepelaung' ajer...

The food was okay. I guess everyone in the department enjoyed.. with all those exhanging of gifts (Hmmhh... I got the Boss's secret prize!), the lucky draws and sms games... Tak sangka Kama membawa pulang hadiah-hadiah yang lumayan seperti 1 tin biskut ..... wahahahahahahh ..... (Pls be reminded that is to be shared among the HEK's members bila tgh lapar ... )

The highlight of the event was actually 'the singing session'. I believe those invloved would agree with me. En O who at first refused to sing, sang 2 songs ... tu tak masuk dia nyanyi as backup singer... Kama who at first wanted to finish merely one song... got excited and sang more songs.... LOL!!!!!

Kogi with her Kuch Kuch Ho Ta He.... Sally pecah tradisi - empowering Goodbye from Air Supply...I love Nasha's voice when she sang Never Been To Me... En Rahmat and En Raman were also on mic.. Special request by En Rahmat - to duet with me... hahaha 'Endless Love'... Mr Chang was cool... tunggu sampai abis...
Event yang sepatutnya habis kul 9.00 was dragged to 10.30pm... Of coz the Boss was with us... I once thought okay ke Boss ni... dengar the staff 'melalak' sumbang mambang... But from the reaction and body language.. she did have a good time...

Thank you guys ... We did (not merely the gals... but boyz too) had fun !
Looking forward for the new office bearer appointment of HOUP Club !!

Mohammad Azmin Ariffin (1965 - 2002).

Flashing back... I then realised why on earth I kept on singing 'How Do I Live' by LeeAn Rimes...

A week before 29 March 2002, he called me .. informing that Qilla's birthday was just around the corner and he wanted to host a birthday party.

5 days before 29 March 2002, he told me to withdraw an X amount of money from the Family Trust Fund to give to a friend of mine - investing in his project. "If anything happened, get Ed to sign off since Ed is another signatory of the trust fund."

I refused to 'invest' but he insisted. "We promised him". That was his sincere reason. The last thing that I knew, he was admitted - severe chicken pox. I did call him before his admission... wanted to visit  him... He refused.  "Contagious' he said.

The first time I paid him a visit at the hospital was a casual one. But I noticed the rashes and blisters. It was all over his body.I knew he missed his daughters especially Oya. The nurses couldn't let Oya in to visit him. It really saddened me watching him cried out loud when he could only see Oya from far. Oya was 9 years old and barely understood what was going on.

26 March 2002, Joe received a call from his doc at 3.00 am. "Your brother is complaining of difficulty in breathing. We need your agreement to proceed with life support'. I was the last in the family to visit him before he was hooked to the life support machine. Sempat pegang tangan, kaki dia... I looked at him and whispered "It will get over soon..." He was looking at me... deeply. I stared away holding back the tears....

The next day, his colleagues, friends and our relatives came... But he was 'in coma'. When I went to see him, I could see tears from his eyes... The doc said his condition was stable but critical. I didn't go to the discussion with the doc. It was abah, Roy (his wife) and Zali (Roy's brother)..

28 March 2002, no one was permitted to pay any visit. It was a relieve to hear that the Doc said his condition was stabilized and his body was responding towards the medication.

That night I recited Yaasin and prayed hard that he will be back again. I even sent him an email explaining his condition with the hope that he will reply once he gets back to work.

But, as human, no matter how good the plans that we laid down .. HE still has the DECISIVE POWER.
On 29 March 2002, after subuh, I received a call from mum asking me to hurry to the hospital. While driving my heart was pounding. "Please God... We still need him... Please don't take him away... His family still want him...

Guess it was too late.... When I arrived, Oya was seen 'confused'. My parents were sobbing. Jo and Ed were in tears. I was the last to arrive... Azmin was no longer with us... "Allah sayangkan dia" ... slowly uttered by abah with deepest sorrow...I know mum was crying inside...

That was 8 years ago... I still 'see him' in my imagination...I dreamt of him often. But after a dream that I had 2 years after he had gone, he didn't appear anymore... In the final dream that I had with him, he told me "I have finally arrived home"...

Its hurt ... really hurt when someone you love was no longer with you. You can 'see' him but you cannot 'touch' him.  You feel like hugging him, but you could not. All you can do is to cherish the memories that you had together till one day when your time will arrive to join him...

Min, you are always in our hearts.... Always be remembered.... Nothing compares to you...
May you rest in peace....

And till now... I know it's ridiculous ... sometimes I am still hoping that I were to receive his reply of the email that I sent him ....

WMK 5760

Its been a while...
Tons of work keep on piling up... tak tau la bila nak susutnya... Tasks keep on coming... Well thinking on the good side... worth to stimulate the mind..
Have to take cuti.. Sounds funny huh? "Have to ".. Yeah.. I have carried forward 4 days from last year's annual leave to 2010. Just gotto know that I have to utilise them before 1 April...
Last week (Thursday - Friday - 2 days)... Next week (Mon- Tues). But need to go to the office next week. Kerja macam biasa...

Many unpredictable things happened last week. I think that's make our life more interesting (hope so...) and more challenging... The love of my life (second after the family) - WMK 5760 'ran amok'. Sent her to the clinic - spent RM800 for the medication... A week after that she had 'high fever'. This time round she was 'admitted' for almost a week and the bill reached RM1025.00!!! Whoaaaaaa.....

Now she is okay... I need to tell her this "I still love you" and will never substitute you with 'someone' else. This I promise you.... (I doubt it !!! hahahha).

During her absence, I got a lift from someone else (nearly 'fell in love with her'). We met at Shell and she dropped me off at the same place everyday without fail for almost a week. Thanks to WTE 3535 and of cos her 'master' Jiji....

Next, WMK 5760 would be directly involved in the Brand Ambassador Program (BAP). But still she has to go thru' certain procedures in order to justify whether or not her condition is fit to join.
If she fits in BAP, looks like no more (for a while I guess!) traffic queue cutting  especially in the morning ... just to beat the jam and clock in by 8.00 am!!Wonder is she can resist that... hahahha.

The Challenge Begins...

Been very busy. Rasa macam tak cukup tangan nak buat semua benda. There's no single task running at one time . Semuanya dah jadi double and tripple at one time. Since the management has given us the green light to proceed with our Social Venture (SV), we've got to get things started. The ignition key is currently running. The closer it gets to April, the more headache and more butterflies are in my stomach.

Today we were at 2 places - MOF and NSTP - trying to settle 4 things at one go. MOF - get the date for Song (again? Its been a year... ), IB launching and booking of the theathret hall as well as the protocol. At NSTP - trying to rope in the media to be our co-partner and getting MOHE to endorse the SV program. Everyone in Editorial, even MOHE is excited with the program. Looks like they bought our ideas... Cool huh?  Tetiba rasa kagum dengan apa yang dah buat...

At the office, get Kama to put up the rules, regulations, executive summary and etc. Simultaneously we are preparing for our DCE's farewell dinner. So everyone in the dept is running around. Ppl like Sally (even tho') not running is sitting still at her desk to ensure the farewell video and multimedia are completed by tomorrow. On top of that some reporters are pitching for CIF story...

Its tiring but happening and satisfying... Can't wait to explore more on the SV. Hope this is something good for the Bank... The Bank is really 'transforming' now. With Hujan's TVC in the pipeline and more product lauchings in planning, everyone in the department is running 'crazy'... yet 'happy' ... When the passion is there ... you bet, we can do almost everthing under the sky...

A Learning process

I've just visited my FB. Terbaca pulak an entry of a friend who is obviuosly having mixed feelings. Mad, frustrated, sad... I think I understand how she feels. Been there ... so rasanya boleh imagine perasaan dia sekarang. No doubt friends and family members are offering their shoulders to cry on... Giving moral support, advise and being good listeners. But whatever it is 'sakitnya' dalam hati tu takkan terubat dalam masa yang terdekat ni... Obviously it will take time. It depends on the individual though... Those with strong hearts will recover very soon. Those without will obviuosly suffer ... inside... But it is merely a learning process in life... A phase in life that we, human will have to go through... to make us stronger... and make us smile ... one fine day.

God knows what's the best for us.. To Adila, be strong, this will make you a better person.

Lemas ...

No I'm not drawning as in 'lemas' dalam air..
Its just that sometimes I feel like saying .. please gimme a break ! ... Give me some space will you?
Hey ... I am trying at my very very level best to act cool as if nothing is bugging me. Dunno how long will it last.
Been very  accommodative all this while...
Please la 'walk your talk'!

So long.. Farewell....

Last Friday, we, Puspanita organized a 'farewell party' for the 'pensioners to be' and to our beloved Vice Chairman, Puan Azian. I can say that the party went very well despite unpredictable glitches hahaha.. (Mdm Nilam, Sally ngan I ajer yang perasan kot...) but we managed to 'cover' perfectly.

6 pensioners to be diraikan. Kak Nah was the one who received the most 'gamat' round of applause. Aiseh Kama, I think you should be there laa... Kak Nah was on stage dengan penuh gaya yang tersendiri. I bet most of the ppl at BSN will miss her kuih, nasi berlauk, laksam and etc. Paling 'cool' ... Ganesh ... Mr Mogan macam malu-malu nak amik gambar wife dia...

Well, the highlight of the party was multimedia presentation for Pn Azian. Sebelum the event started, we tested the multimedia and some of the gals were 'touched' with the pictures and the background song "Goodbye from Air Supply". I bet Pn Azian was trying her best not to 'cry'.... though we really wanted her to cry .... Well some of the old photos 'saved' her la kot sebab gambar-gambar lama memang byk nostalgia and some of them were laughing looking at their photos.

We had the same event last year at Concorde Hotel. But I think this one at Maya was better. Better in terms of response (we had almost 200 members present),food, ambiance and arrangement.

Datin was happy too...
And Datin sempat kempen the ahli to be at our AGM... Cool huh!

My dear AJKs... you did it gals! My many thanks to all of you who have been working very hard to ensure the smooth running of the event. To Sue - I know you are damn happy since your KPI of the activities under your bureau is achieved! But I am still counting you in for another term!
To Sally - Gd job for being a sweet emcee...
Lat - apsal la ko boleh perasan no ID ko yang aku panggil !!!

Pose!~ while waiting for Datin's arrival.

The sweet emcee... Hey you forgot Datin's speech ..... lol!!

Mdm Nilam is 'lucky'... The prize that she won looks like a toilet role...??? No... it couldn't be... The organizer is not that 'cruel maaa..."


To Pn Azian: We gonna miss you and We wish you all the best.....

"Kalau ada sumur di ladang
Boleh kami menumpang mandi
Kalau ada umur yang panjang
Boleh kita berjumpa lagi

Tuai padi antara masak
Esok jangan layu layuan
Intai kami antara nampak
Esok jangan rindu rinduan"

From all of us:

KPI! KPI! ..... aim high.

We just got the instruction to enhance our KPI... not to enhance like putting more 'unnecessary' numbers or 'flamboyant' wordings that make your KPI 'sounds interesting' IN FACT we have to suggest the ratings and weightage and put the numbers that 'sounds achievable'...

Well the Bank is into this performance driven culture...
A good move ...

Looking at the KPIs that I have put for myself, I think it works both ways : good and bad... hahaha. Good as in I am setting KPIs that are said to be easily or perhaps reasonably measurable .. and kalau tak achieve "SIAP!!!" ... marks can be easily deductible. I am actually stretching to my limits to achieve what I have set. A challenge for me as well... Am I able to 'perform' like before? Sometimes when you have all the young ppl around you, you tend to think and work fast. I think work smart has been soooo manipulated too much... Well you still have to work smart though .. but perhaps merely under certain situation/condition :) Obviously working with the young ppl aspires me to work harder. True, experience counts! but sometimes I have to admit that I got the energy from them. Being young and vibrant, they aspire me to give the best out of me. Thanks guys. U know who you are! :)

And this new KPI setting will also be considered as the yard stick to measure one's b****.wow.. talking about b****... I have to say that in my entire working life, this is the 2nd time that I'll be getting one. Thank God for giving me this opportunity and rezeki. Can't hardly wait for that man! My bro just got his. Out of RM35K, after deducting the tax and epf, he merely gets around RM19K... looks like nearly half of the b**** went to the regulatory bodies :) I reserve my comment on that.

Well whatever it is, I am sure some of you guys are counting the days too. But of coz, mind your KPI in order to aim high for your B**** Good for you and good for the organization!

Oops... I did it again!

Maybe this week is a week of blunder! I've done couple of blunders... a serious one was yesterday..
Emailed to a wrong recipient. Luckily that recipient is 'okay'... I hope so...
I think it was the ubat that I took.. I've been on medication.. Not that I am seriously 'ill'.. but you know when you consume like ubat batuk ... you feel 'high'.

But that was done unintentionally. No hidden agenda and not to insult nor incriminate anyone.
Jiji especially.. I hope that it won't happen again... and I've declared in FB that next week lunch is on me (2 days in a row!). As for Doc Kama a.k.a Doc Param: I know you had a good 'laugh' all the way from KL to Kuantan.

Talk to your body

Finally I surrender... am down with flu... sore throat, irritating cough and stuffy nose...
Tried to act 'macho' ... but my body and mind was not at the same wave length.
Yesterday while driving back home, I just wanted to stop at any RR.. just to 'entertain' the dry cough and sleepy eyes... But managed to drive to parent's place and took Amir home. Hubby sent to the clinic. Doc said sore throat has infected the nose and of coz the irritating coughing..

The prescriptions : antibiotics (of coz), nasal spray for the blockage, cough syrup, gargle solutions, clarinase etc...

Looks like Doc Kama's prescription was not 'customised' to my current condition... LOL!
Yesterday, I thot my body still managed to go thru the hectic schedule at the office. Three events in a row... The SSP, opening of branches at Alamesra and Besut.. plus the press coverage that I still owe Zek, a reporter from Bharian.. Bernama's contract...

This morning, I have set my mind to settle few oustanding tasks...the press releases and the speeches... I did it...

I really wish I could be at the Manco for the csr presentation .. Its my 'baby' ... and wonder how its gonna be... at the presentation ... will they (the presenters - MJ and Ji) be shot down or sail thru... Ji, I wish you all the best. Hope the committees understand the main objective of our proposal. Its for the Bank anyways...

As usual, the medicines really force me to sleep... I think my body need a rest. This has been the request from the 'body' since December.. I managed to stand strong merely till yesterday when I finally agreed to 'talk to my body'.. Its time to have a 'lil rest.... in order to 'give' more ..

One fine Sunday...

I was accompanying Amir watching Soccer Dog on Astro Ceria, when Joe my brother and his wife came with the kids. Amir received a belated birthday present from his cousins - something looks like Lego that will finally turn to an F1 car if I am able to get them perfectly joined (which I doubt myself.. or which will take weeks ... hahaha).

Sometimes during weekend when we siblings met, point of interests would be on travelling and the kids. We planned to fly to Sabah for our next family vacation. A place that I longed to visit. Have been to Kuching for couple of times... Hearsay - Kota Kinabalu is nicer, warmer than Kuching.. Have to be there myself to experience the truth. Or we then planned to fly to Sabah in April, just after we got our BO**S. Wow!

Then Ed (another bro of mine) came. The kids have gone to his house (just next door) to play games. I guess it must be the computer games.

We had the normal chit chat ... exchanging views and opinions of the weather (what else! everyone is talking about the weather), and of coz on the kids as well. We were actually discsussing on Oya, our niece (our late brother's daughter) who have been staying with her grandparents (obviously our parents) since she was born! She is now 17. How time flies... Then we talked about Arif another nephew of mine (Joe's eldest son) who is in standard 4.... and we went on and on talking about the kids.

Looks like Joe has found the 'formula' to inculcate the habit of reading among his sons. He has to be the 'example'. So nowadays Joe has been buying books and replace playing computer games with reading. And guess what? It works. He said the boys would read their books whenever they see their father start holding a book. How I wish I can implement that to Amir. Perhaps I am a perfectionist.. trying to get Amir to start reading when he is 3 yrs old... :)

Well what can I say. Its tough to be good parents. I remember, when I was at my younger age, my dad was very strict. Being an army himself, he trained us to be discipline. Whenever we did something wrong which was against his 'military rule' - time for 'corporal punishment'. My mum always said that 'kalau tak korang semua tak jadi 'orang'. Which I think somehow or rather is true. But that kinda treatment will not be 'accepted' in today's world. Kalau sekarang, dah dikira 'kes dera' hahahaha. Today is different. You have to use more of psychological elements to 'change' people. You have to be a 'sweet talker' to persuade people.

Well, whatever mechanism we apply, it must be for the best of our kids! May Allah bless me with all the patience to face and overcome whatever hurdles and hindrance to be a good mum to an active and talkative son Amir!.

Missing the rain?

Where is the rain? The weather is making everyone hay wire... This kinda weather runs everyone 'crazy' I guess. I have been having this flu for the pass one week. It's on and off... and with the outdoor activities and events that forced me to be outside the office worsen my condition. But I'm still hanging on... still ... though at times I just wanted to be lying on bed... resting... How I wish!!!

I guess the current weather is also one of the influential and contributing factors that affects how some people react on some issues. Some were easily snapped on simple issues. Those ppl who are under pressure got stressed easily in this kind of weather.

At least kalau sejuk dan nyaman dapat meredakan 'suasana panas' di dalam hati ... well this is one of the challenges that HE put forward to us .. kena sabar la... This also to remind myself to be more 'careful' and 'attentive' in dealing with people. And.... also a gentle reminder to myself not to make clumsy mistakes a.k.a bloopers... Lately I have done couple of blunders ... not to mention what happened at Belum Resort during the TVC shot... Aiyoo.... lol!!

At the office, the aircond yang sedia ada tak berapa 'cooling' dikatakan tak berfungsi sepenuhnya... Gosh... I can see some cubicles have standing fans ...

Life is as usual... Got so many events to look forward and planning of coz. Ahaa.. this is inclusive our CSR paper presentation to the Management. God Bless Us! The Puspanita's, Farewell's for CE2, Media Gathering, Branch Opening .... I wonder where should I slot my outing with Amir.... to celebrate his BDAy which was on 17 Feb..

And at the office, I hope everything will be okay...
If its the weather .... not to worry ... HE is testing us ... HE is healing the world... to make it a BETTER place..

Don't stress yourself.. Its not the end of the world... Cheers!

A Note To My Dearest Son

I wrote this on 17 Feb 2010... the day you turn 4 years old.
I want you to know that both Abah and Mak love you so much. Nothing compares to you!
We are so thankful to Allah for your excellent health and granting us the privilege to be with you.

The future ahead is not easy and very demanding. We wish and pray that you are bestowed with strength physically, emotionally and spiritually to further lead your life.

My Dearest Son, Happy 4th Birthday. We wish you another year of joy, happiness, laughter, fun, surprises, love and happiness.

With Lots of Love - Abah & Mak

Mastering the art of Marriage

No... I'm not the master... yet...hahaha

This morning while driving to the office, I tuned to HotFM, the chat was on how good is your relationship with your MIL. I think this is something personal.. but perhaps this is one of those so called methods to help ppl with such a problem. So those concerned malaysians out there did give some opinions and advises... Okay la... a good avenue to share your feelings. But make sure your hubby tak recognise your voice... kalau tak... jadi cerita lain plak.

Then in the evening while driving home, still hooked myself on to HotFM. This time round, the topic was 'who controls who?' either you control your hubby or you're being controlled by your hubby. I kinda like this topic. No... not because I'm in power.. its just that betwen both of us, we prefer not to decide... If we were to go out for dinner, we are hoping each one of us to decide where to dine. Easy huh? But normally I will let the decisive power rest on to my hubby's shoulder if it has gotto do with M$ney... sounds good hmmhhh..

I think in marriage its not merely compulsory for you to have the give and take mindset but like it or not you have to practise. Its not something easy for the first timers but gradually we will find it 'helpful' and 'meaningful' to the marriage institution.

I just heard a good friend of mine is going thru a hard time in his marriage. I do hope and pray that whatever decision that he takes would be for the benefit of the children. This is no longer about standing up for one's ego... .

True enuf... marriage is like a learning institution. If you are lucky and play by the specific rules you may pass with flying colours. Sometimes if you are not lucky enuf, you might have to re-sit for your exams... or worst be one of the drop outs!

I pray hard that we will sail thru....

I'm feeling good.

These few days were smooth. Though not as planned but everything was great!
Presented to MJ our proposed CSR initiatives of the year. Response was good. Next, to present to the MANCO. But the team is hoping that the Mgmt will buy our ideas. Let's have something new, fresh and exciting! Something to shout about.

Lately. we have been organizing events for the Bank - new products, new milestone and new collaborations! We had all the menteris in a row beb! Datuk Rais Yatim, Datuk Seri Zahid Hamidi and this coming Sunday Datuk Dr Awang Adek. The bank's visibility is positively portrayed... Hoping the momentum to continue...

Our next new initaitive - Branding! Something exciting and interesting as well as 'stressing' LOL!!
But its good to start from beginning. You own the project, you handle, you monitor and you succeed ... swiftly ..hopefully.. how I wish..

One thing good... I observe my team member is moving positively. Hopefully for good! Passions are shown but perhaps not good enuf... I need more of that from them. But its good to see that they 'hear' what we (together with My Bos) said and stressed. Well.. there's always rooms for improvement as long as they see and accept comments as a chain of challenge to stay competitive and relevant!

Anyways, its good to have each of the team around. Yes, we differ in strength ... but that's what makes us strong!

The value of being persistent

I had to write this...
We have been waiting for months ... getting someone higher level (in a ministry) to involve in our event. No response at all... Our follow ups via phone calls, smses, emails bak kata orang 'dipandang sepi'. Finally we gotto know the so called higher level person is not available.

We then wrote to another second higher level person. This time round the response was good. I knew his special officer but not that I knew him very well. Boss said I have to call him, use my 'voice' to get what we want. Hahaha... yeah boss..

But I did that. Its my kpi anyway ... (no no not using my voice la... Its my kpi to get the higher level person to be at our event) better do it by hook or by crook!. I had to be persistent to get things done. Close the 'book' and move forward. No more ding dong. Tired and sick of that! I called him last week Friday to confirm his Boss's attendance. He smsed "Call me next Monday". I did call him this morning. He said " I haven't speak to my Boss. Basically he is available on that date. Please call me tomorrow'. Okay... I said to myself ... looks like we are losing hope... I smsed him again.

Finally, we got the confirmation. He called the CEO and confirmed. Perhaps tired with my sms or call ... ??? Yes! The event in ON.

Bos (Ji), I think you know how much I want to avoid liaising with the special officer. But it works beb! Lenkali tak payah mintak the MK* lagi... suh aje assistant dia... Senang aje keje... tak payah nak tunggu berbulan2...

Looks like if we want to have it our own way, be persistent... but when you sense that your persistence is to no where, stop it and move forward!

An unsung hero?

Actually I'm sick and tired of doing follow up calls. This is an issue of efficiency and productivity of a government agency ..... What saddened me its on my dad's pension.... a long serving government servant who has also been in the army... Sorry abah... after talking to you this morning ... I think I should even maximize my so called writing skills to write to the media and make noise about it ..... (I don't really like to use this actually... but what choice do I have anyway?). I promise I will try my level best to settle this at the soonest.

All my dad wanted to claim is his right/eligibility. He has served the government for more than 25 years. Unfortunately, his military service has not been 'declared and calculated'. So, now it is merely a matter of producing the confirmation. The application of getting his military service calculated into his servicing years has been approved. But I wonder why the new pension has not been disbursed accordingly. Tried calling the relevant agency and was duly informed that they are still waiting for the confirmation from another 2 relevant agencies. But what the h*** they approved the application if the confirmation (from the other 2 agencies) has yet to be procured!!!!!

The application has now stucked for more than 6 months. I am not sure what and where is the bottle neck (if there is one!!) of the problem. My dad is 76 and all I want to do is to make him happy and feel that he is appreciated.

.... there goes the slogan "People first, Performance Now".......

NY Resolution?

I don't know why I wanted to rush home early today. Had to compromise aerobics ... Feel that I missed my son a lot ...:)

Upon reaching parent's place, Amir rushed to me, gave me a hug.... and forced me to take his things as he wanted to reach home as early as he could.

I just thought that probably he is dying to watch his Power Rangers or Ultraman Dyna DVD....
He did... after all that's the only 'mechanism' at the moment besides playing games in my laptop that would make him stay occupied and offer me my own time to do whatever necessary.

One thing weird today, he brought back home a teddy bear. Just now he whispered to me... "Mak ni adik Amir, nama dia Teddy...". I burst out laughing.

He has fallen asleep and the teddy bear is beside him. Suddenly I pittied him.... He must be very lonely without someone to call a brother... Is this another resolution of ours? :)

What's up ?

Azam baru?

Hari ini dah 2 Jan 2010. Biasanya, menjelang tahun baru, ramai di antara kita sibuk untuk mengenalpasti azam baru masing-masing. Pada jam 5.25 petang 31 Disember lalu, salah seorang OTAI di Jabatan saya telah berkongsi pendapatnya berhubung azam setiap kali tiba tahun baru. Sebenarnya ketika itu saya sedang memikirkan isu yang sama - perlukah saya menetapkan azam yang baru setiap kali tiba tahun baru atau cukup sekadar meneruskan azam yang telah sedia ada. Saya amat tertarik dengan azam beliau " Be Positive and Always Think Good". Bagi saya azam sedemikian, di mata kasar kita memang kelihatan biasa. Tetapi jika dikaji dengan lebih mendalam, azam yang sebegini memberi ruang untuk kita sentiasa berfikiran terbuka dan secara tidak langsung membina jati diri kita sendiri. "Be Positive" memberi indikasi agar kita terus menerima sesuatu kejadian yang baik maupun yang buruk dengan azam untuk terus melipatgandakan usaha bagi mencapai sesuatu yang diingini. "Always Think Good" memberi kita keyakinan dan kepercayaan di dalam kita sendiri. Mr Mogan, thanks for the tips and advise :)... and yes you are absolutely right that 90% what happened to us derived from our own planning. So, I told myself don't stop to plan... You are what you planned (dengan izin Allah). Itu cerita berhubung azam di tahun baru. Tetapi, apa sebenarnya yang berlaku pada tahun baru 2010? Tahun baru 2010 jatuh pada hari Jumaat. Kemeriahannya disambut pada malam Jumaat...

Gerhana Bulan

Pada hari yang sama, berlakunya gerhana bulan (separa). Dikatakan bahawa ketika itu, sebanyak 8% daripada bulan sahaja berada di dalam bayang-bayang umbra di man Bulan penuh akan kelihatan sompek sedikit di awal-awal pagi tahun baru masehi. Menarik kali ini ia berlaku ketika fenomena di panggil Blue Moon. Untuk "Blue Moon" berlaku amat jarang, iaitu setiap lebih kurang 2.5 tahun. Untuk ia berlaku pada awal tahun baru masehi lagi jarang, iaitu setiap 19 tahun. Dan mengikut maklumat dari NASA, untuk 1000 tahun akan datang, kombinasi Blue Moon dan Gerhana Bulan akan berlaku hanya 11 kali sahaja, atau sekali dalam setiap 19 tahun! (info dari halaqah.net).

Operasi tuut!

Di malam yang sama, ketika sebilangan daripada kita meraikan Tahun Baru dengan keluarga, rakan taulan, pihak yang berwajib terus dengan usaha mereka untuk membanteras maksiat - Operasi Cegah Maksiat di malam tahun baru ....
Ketika menonton TV malam semalam, laporan menyatakan beberapa operasi ini dijalankan di Kuala Lumpur dan Kajang. Mereka yang terlibat berumur di antara 16- 45 tahun. Di Kuantan pula, ada yang telah berumur 55 tahun ketika diberkas!. Seorang remaja di Terengganu hampir terjun tingkap ketika diberkas! Cerita-cerita sedemikian akan terus mewarnai kehidupan kita semua agaknya selagi nafsu menguasai diri ....

The price of education!

So the school term is commencing.. this Monday, 4 Jan 2010. Some of us parents will be busy sending our children to the school. I had a chat with my sister inlaws, Ju and Ros 2 weeks back on their budget and spending for the children. According to Ju, they spent around RM600 for Azeem and Azam for new uniforms, school bags, shoes, books etc. While Rose burnt for good :) RM900 for the same good and justified reason - for Arif and Azmin. That's the price of education nowadays. But no matter how pricey it is, education is vital. No compromise. I wonder how my parents brought us up before. I knew they have sacrificed a lot to put us where we are now. And ... now its our turn. Son (this is dedicated to Amir), I will make sure and guarantee your education benefits are procured as long as abah and mak still alive!.


As for me, my resolution will be the same... to enjoy life while giving the best out of me to contribute towards the betterment of my life. To be a good wife to my beloved hubby, a better mum for my only son and a loyal daugther to my parents/parents in law as well as caring sister to my 2 brothers, SIL and BIL. To all friends, you bet, I am always here to be with you for whatever reason. Happy New Year! (though a belated one!).