Sunday, November 15, 2009

I'm still in LOVE!

The bonds of matrimony are like any other bonds - they mature slowly.
I've known him for 13 solid years.
Still ... I think it is insufficient to understand the real him..
Both of us know that we have sacrificed a lot for each other.
Indeed those 'sacrifices' were not openly discussed .....
There were moments when we left each other alone...
There were times when we hold each other close ....
All for only one good reason ...
To ensure the institution that we build will stand still.
But what is the 'institution' without love, care and understanding...

To my beloved hubby "Our wedding was many years ago. The celebration continues to this day. Happy Anniversary.


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Puan Hamidah

Tak lama lagi cuti sekolah.... Yang paling beruntung mesti cikgu dan cikgi sebab dapat cuti yang panjang. Ini mengingatkan saya kepada seorang guru yang bernama Pn Hamidah.
Pn Hamidah memang dilahirkan dari keluarga guru. Bapanya adalah seorang guru besar. Emaknya juga pernah mengajar seketika sebelum berhenti dan menjadi surirumah sepenuh masa. Salah seorang kakak Pn Hamidah juga adalah seorang guru yang kemudiannya berkahwin juga dengan seorang guru. Nak dipanjangkan cerita salah seorang daripada anak Pn Hamidah juga adalah seorang guru dan berkahwin juga dengan seorang guru. Ini bukan rekaan tapi memang benar...... Memang keluarga ini banyak menabur bakti sebagai pendidik bangsa!

Pn Hamidah pernah mengajar di Kajang. Untunglah ketika itu Pn Hamidah tidak mengajar saya. Saya memulakan sekolah rendah saya di Kajang - Sekolah Ren. Keb. Jln Bukit. Tapi setakat darjah 2 sahaja. Saya telah ditukarkan ke Sek Ren Convent Sentul KL ketika penggal akhir darjah dua. Puncanya ibu saya tidak berpuas hati dengan keputusan yang diberikan oleh salah seorang guru ke atas kertas peperiksaan saya. Subjek di sini adalah guru tersebut telah memangkah jawapan saya yang menandakan buah anggur sebagai bukan buah tempatan. Betul la kan... buah anggur bukan buah tempatan.... saya rasa guru tersebut mempunyai masalah dalaman sehingga menjadikan saya sebagai mangsa yang tidak berdosa!

Mula2 bersekolah di sekolah 'omputeh' (Convent Sentul) saya a bit culture shock. Tapi lelama okay... Kawan2 saya ketika itu semuanya anak 'somebody'... ada yang anak doktor, anak minister (Musa Hitam) dll... Tapi hakikatnya saya lebih suka 'bergaul' dengan budak2 biasa yang tinggal sekitar Sentul... Saya rasa mereka yang dari 'golongan biasa' ni lebih ikhlas, senang dibawa ke tepi dan ke tengah dan yang paling utama sempooiii...

Yang tak syoknya di sekolah baru ni saya kena 'maintain'.... you know ... tak boleh nak buat 'nakal' sebab orang tau saya anak Puan Hamidah yang terkenal dengan 'garangnya' (ye Pn Hamidah adalah ibu saya). Saya pernah terlihat Pn Hamidah 'melakarkan misai' dengan marker hitam di muka salah seorang murid di kelas sebelah kerana berbuat bising!

Ketika saya di darjah 4, guru kelas saya adalah Pn Hamidah. Mak tuan! saya memang gerun dan takut. Kawan2 saya yang lain kata 'you're so lucky'. Dalam hati saya "lucky ke bendanya ..." Memang saya selalu menjadi 'bahan ujian' di dalam kelas Pn Hamidah... (apalah nasib saya kan!) Ada suatu ketika Pn Hamidah tak dapat hadir ke sekolah sebab tidak sihat. Memandangkan saya berkereta sekali dengan Pn Hamidah, saya pun dapat 'cuti' Seronok tak terkira... Bila Pn Hamidah mula mengajar semula dan memeriksa buku latihan dia telah mencatit "Malas menghantar buku" di buku latihan saya. Saya confused... kerana saya tak hantar buku tu sebab Pn Hamidah tidak sihat dan tidak hadir ke sekolah... dan saya tidak turut hadir kerana dia tak hadir! (Bila saya mengingatkan Pn Hamidah pada insiden ini, dia pasti ketawa bagai nak rak!)

Saya juga bukanlah seorang yang aktif di dalam sukan. Kalau di sekolah rendah dahulu, sekadar mewakili sekolah untuk acara olahraga. Bila guru sukan memaklumkan yang saya dipilih untuk mewakili sekolah ke peringkat yang lebih tinggi, Puan Hamidah, tidak memberi keizinan untuk saya terus aktif memandangkan saya harus menjalani latihan selepasa waktu sekolah. Mungkin ketika itu, Puan Hamidah berpendapat itu adalah yang terbaik buat saya. Ketika itu saya memang tidak puas hati dengan keputusan Pn Hamidah..

Tapi Pn Hamidah tak tahu sampai sekarang... saya pernah kemas buku2 di dalam beg sekolahnya. Jadi sambil berkemas saya secara tak sengaja dah tengok Buku REkod yang tebal dan panjang tu.. Dalam tu ada banyak soalan2 peperiksaan. Memang saya baca sambil lalu saja tanpa rasa curiga dan bersalah!

Dua minggu kemudian dalam peperiksaan semua soalan-soalan yang saya baca tu keluar .... saya jawab dengan senang hati hahahaha!

Apa2 pun saya rasa Pn Hamidah was the best class teacher. Walaupun dia seorang guru yang garang dan berdisiplin, dia adalah seorang wanita yang tabah, sabar dan 'membakar diri untuk menerangi orang lain'. Terima kasih Mak @ Pn Hamidah!



Pn Hamidah di samping Penyelia Ariffin. Gambar diambil oleh cucunya Amir di Penang ketika family vacation 2008.

Pn Hamidah dan Penyelia Ariffin dikelilingi oleh cucu-cucu mereka di rumah saya ketika berbuka puasa tahun 2008.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

The fear inside me

I have been having quite a hard time to handle Amir while shopping. Tak kira la hyper market, kedai mamak ke, pasar ke, Seven Eleven ke... mana saje yang ada display toys... its a habit of him nowadays to get me to buy him the toys. Kalau tak beli mende2 ni dia akan buat mende2 ni pulak:

1. duduk depan toys yang dia dah berkenan - his favourite
2. Menangis sambil tarik baju mak dia - once his favourite tapi dah kena tegur ngan abah dia...
3. Berguling-guling sambil nangis - ada tendency tapi belum pernah buat lagi...

So every time kalau nak pegi beli barang, its a habit of mine and hubby pulak to always remind him not to buy any toys. But he is always encouraged to buy books. Usually coloring books are his favourite. Rasanya dah lebih dari 30 colouring books we bought for him. I noticed that he likes to mess around with colours... Sampai habis rumah atuk dia conteng. Last Raya hubby had to repaint the dining and guest areas of my parents house. Actually it was all started when I bought him a big art pad when he was nearly 2 years old. Since then he show interest in drawing and colouring. Colour pencils and crayons tu jangan cakap la...

Lately he has been familiarising himself with our laptops. Mine is his favourite since he can play many computer games. It surprised me one day when I noticed that he can 'on' my laptop and click to the games folder.. Kalau kat umah atok, he will aim on Kak long's PC.

Sometimes I feel that it was unfair for him a 3 year old boy to be deprived from playing with toys. But at the same time we do not want him to be too playful. I once thought to send him to school but was advised by my bro and SIL that it was too fast for him. Deep inside my heart I have this fear that my son could not perform in school, could not socialize and interact with other children ... and macam2 lagi. Is this common or I'm too perfectionist?

Painting, public speaking, the First Lady, eating sessions ... bla bla bla

Maybe age really is catching up with me.. Lately I feel so tired easily. Perhaps last week's schedule was a bit hectic. Nevertheless, the aerobics session was really good. It was then followed with all those preparation in getting the orphanages' paintings exhibited during the ESQ Event with Yayasan Harapan Kanak2 Malaysia. One thing about this ESQ event was that we had the First Lady i.e YAB Datin Paduka Sri Dr Rosmah Mansor to pen down her signature on the 'plaque' that we had at the exhibition area.

Simultaneously during ESQ Event, there was a public speaking competition - the PM's trophy. The participants were really good. I noticed that the Malay students' presentations were a bit 'over' ... perhaps the way they present their ideas... (Kama said 'terlampau banyak berlagu')...

I enjoyed one Indian boy (who was then announced as the winner - for non malay category). The second topic that braught him on stage was a bit 'touchy' to me. It was about 'The day that I like most. And for him the day that he likes most is Mother's Day. I believe his mum (who was sitting at the back) was damn proud with his son... :)

Overall the event was a memorable one! We had the opportunity to 'snatched' the First Lady from the public while she was heading towards the lift with her entourage and the photographers... and Jijie managed to get her to sign the plaque. The most happiest person would be Kama I guess as he was the closest (in the pix taken by En Raman) to the First Lady. A handful thanks to En Nazri the CEO of Yayasan who played the role to get the First Lady ushered to our exhibition area. Not forgotten to Ramona aka Romano (cenc called her by this name you know...)who has helped us to get the marker ribbonned.... :)

All in all, I enjoyed the eating session at the cafetaria the most... the food was good and the PRICE is CHEAP.... On that Friday, it costs me only RM8.00 for nasi+lala+kerang+sayur taugeh+air jagung (mine) and teh O (Kama) and nasi+ikankeli+sayur+teh O limau (En Raman)... Kalau kat KL ... ? Don't dream la kata omputeh ... jangan mimpi la ... kata orang melayu...

Sunday, November 1, 2009

EGG Banking ?

Yes.. egg banking is available here in Malaysia! Just read in today's Sunday Times. Egg banks are available in 3 private hospitals in the Klang Valley. The report said that this procedure is merely recommended for women undergoing medical treatment. However in developed countries this is a growing trend for 30 something women to put off their motherhood till they find maybe a perfect husband or for career purposes - climbing the corporate ladder.

According to one consultant obstetrician gynae and fertility specialist, egg freezing offers a woman to preserve their fertility without the pressure of the bilogical clock. How does it work? Eggs can be collected without the woman undergoing ovarian stimulation. The procedure converts the eggs into 'glass' and upon thawing, the egss have a good chance of survival and can be used dor fertility treatment. Now it is even possible to collect immature eggs before freezing them - a procedure called in-vitro maturation (IVM).

This is merely applicable to those woman with medical reasons especially cancer. Most clinicians will not perform eggs freezing for 'social' reasons and is still in the stage of 'debatable'.

Comments from the religious leaders:

Sikh leader - Egg freezing should not be a desirable option.

Christian Federation - Technology is great if it helps the mankind but there must be laws governing such situation in case something goes wrong.

Mufti - In Islam sperm that is used within the marriage is alright. Some single women may claim that they want to freeze their eggs until they are married. But this technology may also allow them to use their eggs even if they never get married.

Hindu Sangam - Any research done for the good of mankind is acceptable. But when ppl misuse it, then we need to take precautionary measures.

Buddhist monk - Its good to enjoy life but if you wait too long to have children you may develop complications during pregnancy. I am also sure no child wants to go to their graduation ceremony with their 'grandparents'. :)

My bits - I think this procedure is merely meant for those women undergoing medical treatment. But this is very subjective. If eggs freezing is 'legally' and 'officially' allowed in Malaysia, those women should be warned on the the possible risks. So those women out there what say you?

Friday, October 30, 2009

CTM vs Footloose ... & We Will Rock You...

Dua kali pergi IB baru dapat beli tiket Cuci2 The Musical (CTM). The first time we went, the line was offline... The second time we went, the queue was long. I told Jiji "orang yang beratur depan kita ni macam Adibah Nor aje". Jiji gelak ... "Yelah tu"... Tak puas hati, saya ke depan sikit and glanced at that person. "Ye la Ji.. Adibah Nor"... :) Pelik gak naper dia beli tiket

CTM was the second Malay theatre that I watched. The first was "Si Tenggang" staged at DBKL Hall... maybe 10 -12 years back.... The heroin was Ramlah Ram... hehehe... Masa gi London, ada gak watched theatre - 1- Footloose and 2- We Will Rock You. Memang la gempak tengok yang kat London ni... and memang berbaloi. Tapi bila convert pounds to Malaysian Ringgit, memang beratus la duit abis... But it was the experience that counts right?

CTM was really good. Thumbs up and pat to the shoulders to all involved especially the main casts. I like the roles played by Awie and Adibah Nor. Tak sangka Awie boleh berlakon teater. Disebabkan we all duduk kat the second row, memang la teramat dekat dengan stage and can see very the clear one... Meremang bulu roma bila dengar suara Awie. Frankly memang puas hati... tak rugi spent the nite with my crazy colleagues like Jiji, Kama, Sally and hubby and En Raman. ... memang I poyo bak kata Kama... hahahaha...

CTM finished dalam kul 12.00 malam. Memang abis ajer terus blah... Disebabkan kepoyoan yang terlampau memang satu gambar pun takder..... Dalam kete hubby called " You tido kat IB ke malam ni"... jokingly... I drove home with a big smile.
Hope to do this more often....


Criminalise War

This is indeed the 'one of a kind' exhibition and conference that I've ever attended before.
The word 'war' carried the meanings of death, suffering, torture, loss ....

Held in PWTC, the reason why I would want to attend this conference on the first place is to listen to Tun Mahathir's keynote during the launching ceremony. Not more than that. Before the keynote was addressed, there was a 'play' staged by Iraqi kids whose parents have sought refuge in Malaysia. The 'play' was on - one sunny day they were playing with their friends when suddenly their homes were ambushed ...all of them except one small boy escaped uninjured.

(At this moment, dah tak tertahan air mata... I knew that the person who sat beside me was also crying...). It was a horrifying experience... tak boleh nak dibayangkan if this happen to us, our family.. especially our own kids...

Tun's speech was very inspiring.... I wonder who did the speech for him or maybe he did on his own.. Before we proceeded to lunch, we entered the exhibition hall that showcased the methods used to torture the prisoners in the famous Guantanamo and Abu Gharib detain prisons.

These are some pictures of the torture methods ....



Pics taken from http://mmail.com.my/content/17393-criminalise-war-8. More pics can be viewed at this url.

The following day I went again ... The topic discussed was interesting - War and the Mass Media. Among the 'supposed to be' panelists were YB Dato Seri Utama Rais Yatim, Mr Sami Al Hajj - a Sudanese journalist for Al Jazeera network. He was detained as 'enemy cobatant' at the Guantanamo Bay. Detained in 2001 and released in 2008. Mr Sami delivered his bits in Arabic and was perfectly and proficiently translated by a person named Mr Moazzam Begg. The Merdeka Hall was heated by questions from the audience. Towards the end I gotto know that Mr Begg was one of the detainees also held in Guantanamo Bay. He is one of nine British citizens imprisoned for a crime he didnt commit. He is now the Director of Cage Prisoners and currently work closely with leading human rights organizations.

To those who are strong ... come and see at your very own eyes the torture chamber .... The exhibition ends this Saturday, 31 Oct 2009. The initiatives of the Conference are:

- to stop the slaughter of innocents
- to stop profiteers earning blood money
- to stop the mass media from glorifying war
- to stop the manufacture of weapons.

"How can we claim to be civilised when we condone and legalise mass killings of men,
women and children, the old and the sick as a solution to conflicts between nations"
- Tun Mahathir -.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

You Paint My Life

Nearly half of the day today was spent with the orphans from Yayasan Harapan Kanak2 and Home of Hope AlKhadeem. There were around 60 of them. Everyone is into 1Malaysia now... That's the beauty of multi racial society. We had them all under one roof today! I told my team, Kama and En Ramon, today is our CSR day. En Ramon could't hide his excitement... he was early today!

Anyways, do you paint or have you ever done any painting before? Nope, not me... but I've always wanted to have that kinda 'skill'. Not gifted and busy all the time... I never tried hard to discover as to whether I can really paint. Today, at our Training Centre, we had an Art Painting Competition. Its actually a project that we are currently working on - to choose 12 best paintings as part of our 2010 Calendar. Something different from previous years.

Frankly, I was actually stunned with the ability of the kids (mostly around 8 - 15 of age) to paint. They sketched their ideas, transfered onto the canvas and started the arcrylic painting. Looks easy ... Some of coz were lost since they couldn't imagine or relate themselves with B**. The resident artist, En Ali Akbar was very supportive and accommodative.

Finally, 2 hours after that, the kids completed their tasks. Boss and our team shortlisted around 24 paintings out of 60. Viewing the paintings, I could say that the kids have done well... the 'cute' factor is there when you deal with kids right?

These are some paintings and scenes captured during the competition. Bravo everyone! To Suki and the team, " We've made it ... and hopefully we can settle the rest within time".